time really flies.. its december again.. a month for giving and sharing.. not forgetting caring.. there are many major events that going to happening real soon..
herby wanna wish all the december babies, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Shujuan
Lan Mei
Dorothy
and myself.. heheh
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UUUUSSSSS.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO US!!!!
hehe.. know its kinda lame.. but sometimes its good to be lame... haha..
its been a month and finally im updating my blog again.. hehe
currently working in a dental clinic as a dental assistant.. take names, pass instrument, wash instrument.. collect money and distribute medicine.. and i save time on travelling caused the clinic is located just 10minutes away from my place.. haha.. never ever expect myself to do such a job.. not that its not good, but its just kinda change for me.. luckily, my collegues are kind and patient with me.. hehe therefore, i must be guai amd pick up things as soon as possible as december is a peak season.. hehe..
this term is kinda making me going crazy as i have five subjects to cope.. hopefully this term's subject i will pass.. i don't want to spend another three months and $274... therefore, i must pray SUPER hard that i will clear all my subjects this term and graduate... haha
Every day can be a beautiful day.
Just take a look around you and
think about all of thewonderful things
you have to be thankful for...
the sunshine,
roses,
laughter,
close friends,
family,music,and
beautiful dreams.
The storm is never half as bad as it seems.
Don't let the rain ruin your day.
When the dark clouds move in just smile,
because the good times are on the way.
To become the person
You are truly meant to be,
You must be subjected to
Life's trials and tribulations
Stumbling along the way,
Experiencing love and heartache,
To appreciate all that you had ...
And that of which you have yet to attain,
Never allowing life's lessonsTo shatter your dreams ...
Embracing DestinyWhen fate throws you a curve,
And it's not within your master plan ...
Heave it backIt is within each of us,
To determine what is desirable for us individually
Life and love is meant to be cherished,
Sharing with all those you adore
Whether you choose to forge your path alone
Or hand in hand with person of choice
Doing it with enthusiasmIs truly paramount
Live your life to the fullestAs if it were your last day of mortality
For each day is truly a precious gift
Fear not the unknown,
Embrace Destiny and make it your own.
Currently, im very contented with my life.. having all my besties to be by my side.. having him to care and love me as well.. im thankful for everything i have.. but i will not take everythin for granted and continue to cherish and embrace all i have..
As each day passes, i have learnt that in life you have to be more forgivng and forgoing so that you can be embracing happiness and not think of things that will not be happening again.. yes, its normal to sometimes brood about it but don't let it leave a scar on you.. let bygones be bygones.. who doesn't have an ugly past.. therefore, humans must be more forgiving and not calculating about the past..
looking forward for my birthday and genting.. hehe hope everyone will be able to make it.. hehe guess im gonna be broke le.. alot of things i wanna buy and do.. i must work very hard le.. haha
my dear friends.. please take very good care of yourself.. please go see doctor u if you really need..
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Sunday, October 29, 2006
hahaha...
haha.. finally decided to start my lazy fingers to once update my blog again.. haha.. sometimes updating blogs can be so fun and also so tiring.. haha ops.. i don't mean anything..
erm.. i have stopped working at loof, a rooftop bar which i will always be reminded of where working can be alot of fun even though sometimes it could be busy like mad.. haha.. i have thought for a long time before i finally decided to quit.. i have decided to give up this job because of the late dismissal hours.. im so afraid that i will doze off in class which i really don't wish to.. haha anyways 27 october 2006 will my last day there.. haha luck for weiling and me, that most people didn't knew that ot was our last day.. therefore, we are saved from the sabotage.. haha i will definately miss you guys and those joy and stress that we once shared.. haha haha i would like to thanks steven here although, he will never be able to read this, for the treat he give on our last day at work..
Before my last day at loof, i have already embarked on a new journey of my part time working life.. the pay was the same just that the travelling distances had to be at DOVER!!! omg.. but luckily, the working hours are flexible and so far, the new colleagues have been of a great fun and help too..
haha.. saturday, went clubbing with shuping and wayne to celebrate da jie birthday cum halloween.. haha had fun but felt abit tired.. haha well, its already since its a once in a blue moon basis.. haha
another thing is that i have been trying to convince myself not only to be successful in pretending not to care about someone but also trying to not think and get abit sad when i realised how the person actually feel and said about me now.. well, i have to learnt to be realistic, how that particular person feels and said about you is no longer the same after you guys cant even be friends.. haha its alright that we are no longer what we used to be cause i have tried slightly (in order not to force the person into it) to savage the friendship.. it takes two hands to clap after all.. friendships are all destinated.. if the person is meant to be your friend, it will be after all.. just like what i always believe in, Certain things are just not meant to be... therefore, leave everything to fate and destiny.. haha
so far in my life, everything have been alright, thanks to all my besties and the special him.. haha
just that i have to SUPER buck up for my last lap in ITE.. the thought of leaving IQR can be quite saddening.. soon, i am leave my dear classmates to continue my journey perhaps to the working life or studies without them.. i definately gonna miss the laughers and joys that we had.. haha i have tried telling myself to be cheered up cause this is another turning point in life again that i had to experience.. even the happiest times have to come to an end some day for a better endeavours..
erm.. i have stopped working at loof, a rooftop bar which i will always be reminded of where working can be alot of fun even though sometimes it could be busy like mad.. haha.. i have thought for a long time before i finally decided to quit.. i have decided to give up this job because of the late dismissal hours.. im so afraid that i will doze off in class which i really don't wish to.. haha anyways 27 october 2006 will my last day there.. haha luck for weiling and me, that most people didn't knew that ot was our last day.. therefore, we are saved from the sabotage.. haha i will definately miss you guys and those joy and stress that we once shared.. haha haha i would like to thanks steven here although, he will never be able to read this, for the treat he give on our last day at work..
Before my last day at loof, i have already embarked on a new journey of my part time working life.. the pay was the same just that the travelling distances had to be at DOVER!!! omg.. but luckily, the working hours are flexible and so far, the new colleagues have been of a great fun and help too..
haha.. saturday, went clubbing with shuping and wayne to celebrate da jie birthday cum halloween.. haha had fun but felt abit tired.. haha well, its already since its a once in a blue moon basis.. haha
another thing is that i have been trying to convince myself not only to be successful in pretending not to care about someone but also trying to not think and get abit sad when i realised how the person actually feel and said about me now.. well, i have to learnt to be realistic, how that particular person feels and said about you is no longer the same after you guys cant even be friends.. haha its alright that we are no longer what we used to be cause i have tried slightly (in order not to force the person into it) to savage the friendship.. it takes two hands to clap after all.. friendships are all destinated.. if the person is meant to be your friend, it will be after all.. just like what i always believe in, Certain things are just not meant to be... therefore, leave everything to fate and destiny.. haha
so far in my life, everything have been alright, thanks to all my besties and the special him.. haha
just that i have to SUPER buck up for my last lap in ITE.. the thought of leaving IQR can be quite saddening.. soon, i am leave my dear classmates to continue my journey perhaps to the working life or studies without them.. i definately gonna miss the laughers and joys that we had.. haha i have tried telling myself to be cheered up cause this is another turning point in life again that i had to experience.. even the happiest times have to come to an end some day for a better endeavours..
Thursday, October 19, 2006
haha.. still so slow in updating...
haha.. hello folks.. very very sorry.. i know my blog have been very BORING... spider web growing soon le... hehe the final lap of me attaining my cert has arrived and i really have doubts if i could really get that cert.. all i wish for is just a simple pass and move on.. haha
feeling boring without zhen going training with me.. since i got nothing to do at home and there are a couple of hours before training start, so i finally decided to update my blog.. haha wanted to update my blog last week when i was in a lan shop but too concentrate on MSN, therefore, didnt blog.. haha
the plan to job hop has already started.. finally after thinking for some time after recieving my previous term result.. haha the result was SUPER BAD... really ashamed to face mrs lee.. perhaps now is the time to forcus on my studies by hoping to another job with ... perhaps retail working hours... really cant afford to sleep in class already.. can anyone help me... OMG!!!
whats not supposed to be said will not be said.. im a person who cant control myself when i have the slightly feeling.. therefore, if you think im heartless or cold hearted, so be it.. think what you think of me.. there's nothing i can do about it.. i rather be silent then more things happen.. dear friends who are reading my blog please dont mistaken that im hinting something or telling anyone anything..
ever since i known you, im losing my confidence in myself.. you make me feel scare of you getting upset.. haha is this really because i loved you too much to let you get upset about me??? heaven knows.. although you made me feel that i already have a place in your heart but somehow or rather im still very afraid of your past.. anyways, im prepare to live day by day and not wanting to think about the future with you...
hope you will come to terms with it.. be STRONG and MOVE on.. i understand how it feels.. the feeling really SUCKS!!! and too sudden to accept but you must jiay0!!! cry it out loud and talk to someone if you really need to talk.. life is about being happy or sad.. since its using the same amount of energy, why not choose to be happy and feel light.. im sorry.. when it comes to relationships, im tongue tied with words.. not good with words.. but i still hope that my ears can be of your service if you need them.. hugges
feeling boring without zhen going training with me.. since i got nothing to do at home and there are a couple of hours before training start, so i finally decided to update my blog.. haha wanted to update my blog last week when i was in a lan shop but too concentrate on MSN, therefore, didnt blog.. haha
the plan to job hop has already started.. finally after thinking for some time after recieving my previous term result.. haha the result was SUPER BAD... really ashamed to face mrs lee.. perhaps now is the time to forcus on my studies by hoping to another job with ... perhaps retail working hours... really cant afford to sleep in class already.. can anyone help me... OMG!!!
whats not supposed to be said will not be said.. im a person who cant control myself when i have the slightly feeling.. therefore, if you think im heartless or cold hearted, so be it.. think what you think of me.. there's nothing i can do about it.. i rather be silent then more things happen.. dear friends who are reading my blog please dont mistaken that im hinting something or telling anyone anything..
ever since i known you, im losing my confidence in myself.. you make me feel scare of you getting upset.. haha is this really because i loved you too much to let you get upset about me??? heaven knows.. although you made me feel that i already have a place in your heart but somehow or rather im still very afraid of your past.. anyways, im prepare to live day by day and not wanting to think about the future with you...
hope you will come to terms with it.. be STRONG and MOVE on.. i understand how it feels.. the feeling really SUCKS!!! and too sudden to accept but you must jiay0!!! cry it out loud and talk to someone if you really need to talk.. life is about being happy or sad.. since its using the same amount of energy, why not choose to be happy and feel light.. im sorry.. when it comes to relationships, im tongue tied with words.. not good with words.. but i still hope that my ears can be of your service if you need them.. hugges
Thursday, September 07, 2006
a NEATER room..
haha.. haha.. those who have been to my place before, you are definately know how much of a big mess my room is... haha i have been telling myself to pack the room pack the room but yet each time you xin wu li.. haha the room thingy always let me have a headache whenever im thinking how to pack my room.. how to clear away all those rubbish accumulated in many years.. hahahahahaahahahahah lol...
tuesday, ling, lan mei and shuming went my house do our entreprenuar project.. After a while, ling ask me what would i do if they want to help me pack my room??? then, i thought she was joking.. so i said that why not... haha.. they said that the pile of mess stacking up was distracting them from doing the project.. hahahaha so, they wanna pack my room with me...
The next moment i knew, they were already starting the ball rolling.. haha after the next few hours, my room was VERY CLEAN and NEAT.. free of dust and the pile of rubbish was gone.. but then, my living was not that neat le... haha that part should be continued by me... hahaha my mummy and daddy was glad when they saw that.. haha they including me are very happy.. haha THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!! MUACKS
tuesday, ling, lan mei and shuming went my house do our entreprenuar project.. After a while, ling ask me what would i do if they want to help me pack my room??? then, i thought she was joking.. so i said that why not... haha.. they said that the pile of mess stacking up was distracting them from doing the project.. hahahaha so, they wanna pack my room with me...
The next moment i knew, they were already starting the ball rolling.. haha after the next few hours, my room was VERY CLEAN and NEAT.. free of dust and the pile of rubbish was gone.. but then, my living was not that neat le... haha that part should be continued by me... hahaha my mummy and daddy was glad when they saw that.. haha they including me are very happy.. haha THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!! MUACKS
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
haha.. don't know what im typing..
taxi taxi taxI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what's the point of taking a cab even when you know you are going to be late.. im sure most people takes a cab because they wouldn't want to be late.. haizzz... sad to say.. i took a cab this morning but i still ended up late for school.. thanks to the taxi driver.. luckily i think ms XXX wasn't aware of it.. haha hopefully she doesn't... if not, haiiiizzzz... haha lol anyways, this teaches me a lesson to be punctual... haha i have been telling myself this but yet each time i getting worse.. ops.. anyways, since im aware of it now, i BETTER try EXTREMLY hard to change this idiotic habit..
exam coming soon.. the days getting nearer, the tension gets tighter.. hope i don't snap during exams..
minds getting more and more blank as im typing this blog.. haha wondered if its due to lack of sleep.. haha ops.. im love to sleep.. that's me...
my love for stars seems just getting deeper and deeper as time passes.. don't know why im so obessed with it.. haha simply love it.. haha just now i wanted to change my blogskin when i happen to go into a website where i can get many beautiful pics of stars.. simply spoiled for choices.. haha i like something simple yet sweet.. but it has to be strong enough to capture my heart.. haha don't be greedy.. anyways, decided to stay with my forever friends blog skin.. hehe
haha.. to be honest with you guys.. im not sure of what i wanna typing.. cause didn't know why, just felt like typing and typing... haha
what's the point of taking a cab even when you know you are going to be late.. im sure most people takes a cab because they wouldn't want to be late.. haizzz... sad to say.. i took a cab this morning but i still ended up late for school.. thanks to the taxi driver.. luckily i think ms XXX wasn't aware of it.. haha hopefully she doesn't... if not, haiiiizzzz... haha lol anyways, this teaches me a lesson to be punctual... haha i have been telling myself this but yet each time i getting worse.. ops.. anyways, since im aware of it now, i BETTER try EXTREMLY hard to change this idiotic habit..
exam coming soon.. the days getting nearer, the tension gets tighter.. hope i don't snap during exams..
minds getting more and more blank as im typing this blog.. haha wondered if its due to lack of sleep.. haha ops.. im love to sleep.. that's me...
my love for stars seems just getting deeper and deeper as time passes.. don't know why im so obessed with it.. haha simply love it.. haha just now i wanted to change my blogskin when i happen to go into a website where i can get many beautiful pics of stars.. simply spoiled for choices.. haha i like something simple yet sweet.. but it has to be strong enough to capture my heart.. haha don't be greedy.. anyways, decided to stay with my forever friends blog skin.. hehe
haha.. to be honest with you guys.. im not sure of what i wanna typing.. cause didn't know why, just felt like typing and typing... haha
check this out..
Hey people!!! Check these out.. i find most of them quite true.. hope they are true for you as well.. haha enjoy..
People who are born in the month of:
January
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
Febuary Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
April
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.
June
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
August
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.
September
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
October
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
November
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
December
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.
People who are born in the month of:
January
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.
Febuary Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.
April
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.
June
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!
July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.
August
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.
September
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.
October
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.
November
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.
December
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.
Monday, August 28, 2006
blog for sake of blogging???
Today is no special day and I have no particular reason for blogging.. I have no news to tell.. nor any problems to discuss.. or gossips to tell.. i only wanted to say...
MANY SMILES BEGIN BECAUSE OF ANOTHER SMILE.. All it takes is just someone to start the ball rolling..
haha.. its been twelve days since i last blogged.. am i losing my interest or mood to blog or i just simply blog for blogging??? haha perhaps only god or the inner me knows..
anyways, life has been fine.. just that alot pieces of work to pick up and master before my second year mid-year exam starts.. i don't pray for flying colours results but just a pass i would be overjoyed cause i don't wish to waste two year of my youth for nothing.. haha sounded serious??? perhaps.. haha lol..
haha.. u need not apologise... cause i understand that there are certain things that cant be shared to certain individual.. so, NO WORRIES, IM FINE!!! haha if im meant to know anything, i would be told.. haha thanks for all those pleasant surprises.. im sorry if im have not been a good companion to celebrate your big day..
sometimes i wondered if i should note down all my happiness and sadness so in time to come, i will be reminded of it??? haha no particular reasons for typing these.. just typing only.. haha perhaps if i don't be so detailed, i will not be reminded of the sadness or happiness that i once had.. haha.. so therefore i cherish and treasure all those happy memories in my heart.. haha and try to erase all those unhappiness.. haha humans are greedy.. aren't they??? maybe that's life.. people would only want to remember all the happiness and not sadness.. but to remember sadness isn't that daunting either.. sometimes it good to remember them so that you would know how to cherish the one when they have arrived.. BUT its still better to dump all those sadness into the trash bin FOREVER!!! haha
haha.. just finished the inter-college badminton tournament, CC team 1 won the championship and team 2 won the third placing.. haha its been a pleasure to work with all these girls who are jovial and fun-loving.. haha but i still miss the previous batch of them.. haha perhaps all these would be in my memories forever.. all the school life.. all those ever unimaginable memories lives in my mind throughout my living years..
i felt that my life is getting more and more complicated.. im not sure if this is what i ever wished for.. perhaps i should just say that unexpected things happens at the most unexpected times.. haha so, stop brooding and live life to the fullest cause life is short.. enjoy it.. love it..
MANY SMILES BEGIN BECAUSE OF ANOTHER SMILE.. All it takes is just someone to start the ball rolling..
haha.. its been twelve days since i last blogged.. am i losing my interest or mood to blog or i just simply blog for blogging??? haha perhaps only god or the inner me knows..
anyways, life has been fine.. just that alot pieces of work to pick up and master before my second year mid-year exam starts.. i don't pray for flying colours results but just a pass i would be overjoyed cause i don't wish to waste two year of my youth for nothing.. haha sounded serious??? perhaps.. haha lol..
haha.. u need not apologise... cause i understand that there are certain things that cant be shared to certain individual.. so, NO WORRIES, IM FINE!!! haha if im meant to know anything, i would be told.. haha thanks for all those pleasant surprises.. im sorry if im have not been a good companion to celebrate your big day..
sometimes i wondered if i should note down all my happiness and sadness so in time to come, i will be reminded of it??? haha no particular reasons for typing these.. just typing only.. haha perhaps if i don't be so detailed, i will not be reminded of the sadness or happiness that i once had.. haha.. so therefore i cherish and treasure all those happy memories in my heart.. haha and try to erase all those unhappiness.. haha humans are greedy.. aren't they??? maybe that's life.. people would only want to remember all the happiness and not sadness.. but to remember sadness isn't that daunting either.. sometimes it good to remember them so that you would know how to cherish the one when they have arrived.. BUT its still better to dump all those sadness into the trash bin FOREVER!!! haha
haha.. just finished the inter-college badminton tournament, CC team 1 won the championship and team 2 won the third placing.. haha its been a pleasure to work with all these girls who are jovial and fun-loving.. haha but i still miss the previous batch of them.. haha perhaps all these would be in my memories forever.. all the school life.. all those ever unimaginable memories lives in my mind throughout my living years..
i felt that my life is getting more and more complicated.. im not sure if this is what i ever wished for.. perhaps i should just say that unexpected things happens at the most unexpected times.. haha so, stop brooding and live life to the fullest cause life is short.. enjoy it.. love it..
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
sportmanship???
isn't sports supposed to be fair and square??? was it right was a coach to kinda ask me to give up the game because its better for one to die than both??? i know that im already losing it.. haha perhaps its because of all my stupid mistakes or im just not calm enough.. haha anyways, it alright.. what's done cannot be undone.. haha at least i tried my best.. hehe was i feeling sore for losing or just that im just quite unexpected that XXX would say something like that??? he even said that my friends came to celebrate with the loser.. he said it was a joke but i felt that he was being sarcastic about it.. well, its alrite since i lost the game..
Went to watch "Crazy Stone" at PS after the match.. haha its been a long time since i went movies with 7 other persons.. the show was quite funny..
Monday when i was playing, i couldn't believe that was me.. haha simply running the never-say-die spirit.. haha it was a game to remember.. haha
Friday's and Saturday's fireworks was BEAUTIFUL!!!! Fantastic!!! haha i was shooting the firework when i was almost knocked off the chair by a little boy because of his mother forced him so hard to share the chair with me.. actually it was qutie embarassing..
saturday went to zouk and O bar.. almost got cheated of our money at zouk.. luckily we saw the board that says $20 with 2 standard drink for ladies and $25 with 2 standard drinks for guys.. the guy looked quite decent.. Haiz.. it really proves right not to judge a book by its cover.. so next time beware of a guy that wears glasses, quite tan, and about 1.6m waiting for his preys near the entrance of zouk.. he said that he will be selling the tickets for half price is is supposed to be $10 plus but he will sell at $20 and say its at half price of $25.. he kinda stupid for being tied up by his own words.. he will be asking "excuse me, you have bought your tickets???"
he bought me a shirt and a short.. omg.. why is he suddenly do that??? he really bought it for me or he guilty about something??? figuring hard to find out if he really the one???
Went to watch "Crazy Stone" at PS after the match.. haha its been a long time since i went movies with 7 other persons.. the show was quite funny..
Monday when i was playing, i couldn't believe that was me.. haha simply running the never-say-die spirit.. haha it was a game to remember.. haha
Friday's and Saturday's fireworks was BEAUTIFUL!!!! Fantastic!!! haha i was shooting the firework when i was almost knocked off the chair by a little boy because of his mother forced him so hard to share the chair with me.. actually it was qutie embarassing..
saturday went to zouk and O bar.. almost got cheated of our money at zouk.. luckily we saw the board that says $20 with 2 standard drink for ladies and $25 with 2 standard drinks for guys.. the guy looked quite decent.. Haiz.. it really proves right not to judge a book by its cover.. so next time beware of a guy that wears glasses, quite tan, and about 1.6m waiting for his preys near the entrance of zouk.. he said that he will be selling the tickets for half price is is supposed to be $10 plus but he will sell at $20 and say its at half price of $25.. he kinda stupid for being tied up by his own words.. he will be asking "excuse me, you have bought your tickets???"
he bought me a shirt and a short.. omg.. why is he suddenly do that??? he really bought it for me or he guilty about something??? figuring hard to find out if he really the one???
Saturday, August 12, 2006
haha...
once again, now im going to update my blog again.. hehe the past few days was great everything was fine just that i was feeling very tired and restless.. not sure if it cause im already used to night life or simply just not enough sleep.. haha i love to sleep!!! haha
yesterday, participated in the track and field meets.. ran 800m.. lost terribly.. haha serve me right for not consistently train hard and keeping my stamina.. haha did i start to fast that led me to struggling at the finishing or just stamina dropped??? or did i not control my breathing right??? haha its alright.. everything is a lesson learnt.. anyways, that was my last run in ITE.. never gonna run for BISHAN again!!! kana cheated by that idiot XXX.. only know how to make sure of people only.. asshole he think i enjoy running for him ar.. the answer is NO!!!!! before i went to simei he said im going to run the relay 4 X 400m relay.. then when i went there he ask me to run 800m.. and i run because of hema.. than after i finish the race, he said, "farzanah, you stand by for 4 X 400m" can he make up his mind... he want me to run or dont... aiyo feeling like being make use of.. haiz.. stupid me...
Saw the fantstic fireworks at my work place.. it was VERY BEAUTIFUL!!! LOVE IT!!! but still cant be compared to my staRRY staRs.. haha looking forward to see a shooting star..
monday i going to play the individual for badminton at dover.. feeling kinda scare of who im gonna meet cause of the track and field meets.. haha will i meet very strong players??? hopefully not.. please pray for me and wish me all the best.. haha muacks..
haha.. between me and him, i don't know what's gonna happen.. i don't know if your choice is me or not.. cause im controlling myself from falling deeper.. cause im terrified that what i thought was of your action was simply 180 degrees oppsite of what you really meant.. so, if your choice is really me, then prove it to me to let me release my heart again.. you may talk about the future in front of me but you may not live the future with me.. although i feel that you are already not that playful but the feeling of you still wanna play is still there.. yes.. we kinda talk out but perhaps the timing is not right yet.. we are still expecting some changes.. so im not goin to be the one to ask cause im still have the mind of a typical traditional girl.. haha well let nature takes its course and leave my happiness to fate and destiny..
i may not be the one who is always there for you when you need me but rest assure that i will definately try my best to be when you let me know... haha i know i have not been a good friend.. haha although i might not have voiced out how important you guys are to me but you guys are definately cherished and treasured by me.. you guys have been great frinds to me.. thanks.. treasurin it!!! muack muacks..
yesterday, participated in the track and field meets.. ran 800m.. lost terribly.. haha serve me right for not consistently train hard and keeping my stamina.. haha did i start to fast that led me to struggling at the finishing or just stamina dropped??? or did i not control my breathing right??? haha its alright.. everything is a lesson learnt.. anyways, that was my last run in ITE.. never gonna run for BISHAN again!!! kana cheated by that idiot XXX.. only know how to make sure of people only.. asshole he think i enjoy running for him ar.. the answer is NO!!!!! before i went to simei he said im going to run the relay 4 X 400m relay.. then when i went there he ask me to run 800m.. and i run because of hema.. than after i finish the race, he said, "farzanah, you stand by for 4 X 400m" can he make up his mind... he want me to run or dont... aiyo feeling like being make use of.. haiz.. stupid me...
Saw the fantstic fireworks at my work place.. it was VERY BEAUTIFUL!!! LOVE IT!!! but still cant be compared to my staRRY staRs.. haha looking forward to see a shooting star..
monday i going to play the individual for badminton at dover.. feeling kinda scare of who im gonna meet cause of the track and field meets.. haha will i meet very strong players??? hopefully not.. please pray for me and wish me all the best.. haha muacks..
haha.. between me and him, i don't know what's gonna happen.. i don't know if your choice is me or not.. cause im controlling myself from falling deeper.. cause im terrified that what i thought was of your action was simply 180 degrees oppsite of what you really meant.. so, if your choice is really me, then prove it to me to let me release my heart again.. you may talk about the future in front of me but you may not live the future with me.. although i feel that you are already not that playful but the feeling of you still wanna play is still there.. yes.. we kinda talk out but perhaps the timing is not right yet.. we are still expecting some changes.. so im not goin to be the one to ask cause im still have the mind of a typical traditional girl.. haha well let nature takes its course and leave my happiness to fate and destiny..
i may not be the one who is always there for you when you need me but rest assure that i will definately try my best to be when you let me know... haha i know i have not been a good friend.. haha although i might not have voiced out how important you guys are to me but you guys are definately cherished and treasured by me.. you guys have been great frinds to me.. thanks.. treasurin it!!! muack muacks..
Monday, August 07, 2006
kinda ....
wanted to update my blog afew days ago but didnt know why, felt kinda sian to do so.. haiz.. its qutie sad to felt that way.. its ok anyways cause im updating my blog again now..
bef0Re i knew y0u, i didnt knew that i c0uld l00k at s0meb0dy and smile f0R n0 reas0n..
once again as usual im have alot that i wanted to write cause im too lazy to update my blog plus i didnt have the access to the internet.. haha hope my saviour runs by real soon.. cause i haven been touch my computer for already don't know how many months.. haha..
quite afew things have happend.. perhaps you might felt that im being unresponsible or giving up but im too tired to carry on the load that is not supposely be mine.. haha call me stupid, call me selfish but i had washed my hands off the class t-shirt thing..
i will not say sorry again for i know that you wont like it please believe that i dont really mean it.. thanks for the breakfast..
i don't know if you are still the one cause i dont know if im willing to once again give you my heart.. i believe that im too weak to take that pain again.. please prove to me that you are serious and sincere about me.. cause i think im still waiting.. athough you said that if you are not serious about me, you wouldn't asked me to that dinner but is that really the truth??? sorry that i feeling and talking this way cause im real scare to be broken once again.. its been so hard for me to stop behaving like a walking zombie for some time since the day you left me.. so i had to fend for my heart and protect that for any unneccessary hurt.. im not the one to say that im behaving like a walking zombie but that was what my friend said.. haha if this was last few months, i would have like im on the ninth could but why am i feeling this way??? trying to control my heart or the heart is going dead??? will i say yes if you pop that question now???
qiqi.. thanks for still giving me the morning calls daily and not giving up on me.. didnt know what happend to me for the past two weeks.. im sorry!!! thanks.. muack muacks..
dear friends esepically ling.. haha im so glad that you all are always being patient and not flare up on me.. cause im always blur.. haha thanks.. muacks.. i may not always voice out how much you guys meant to me but i hope you guys know how much you are to me..
haha.. today quite weird.. don't know if its a good thing or bad.. haha firstly, zhen said that i looked liked i applied foundation.. haha then miss tan mentioned if i had plucked my brows.. haha she said i looked quite different today.. haha.. dear friends, please let me know if im ever changing.. im don' t wanna changed to a different even myself i cant recogised.. i still wan to be the same old farzanah.. regardless of character or appearance.. thanks..
got to go.. take care..
bef0Re i knew y0u, i didnt knew that i c0uld l00k at s0meb0dy and smile f0R n0 reas0n..
once again as usual im have alot that i wanted to write cause im too lazy to update my blog plus i didnt have the access to the internet.. haha hope my saviour runs by real soon.. cause i haven been touch my computer for already don't know how many months.. haha..
quite afew things have happend.. perhaps you might felt that im being unresponsible or giving up but im too tired to carry on the load that is not supposely be mine.. haha call me stupid, call me selfish but i had washed my hands off the class t-shirt thing..
i will not say sorry again for i know that you wont like it please believe that i dont really mean it.. thanks for the breakfast..
i don't know if you are still the one cause i dont know if im willing to once again give you my heart.. i believe that im too weak to take that pain again.. please prove to me that you are serious and sincere about me.. cause i think im still waiting.. athough you said that if you are not serious about me, you wouldn't asked me to that dinner but is that really the truth??? sorry that i feeling and talking this way cause im real scare to be broken once again.. its been so hard for me to stop behaving like a walking zombie for some time since the day you left me.. so i had to fend for my heart and protect that for any unneccessary hurt.. im not the one to say that im behaving like a walking zombie but that was what my friend said.. haha if this was last few months, i would have like im on the ninth could but why am i feeling this way??? trying to control my heart or the heart is going dead??? will i say yes if you pop that question now???
qiqi.. thanks for still giving me the morning calls daily and not giving up on me.. didnt know what happend to me for the past two weeks.. im sorry!!! thanks.. muack muacks..
dear friends esepically ling.. haha im so glad that you all are always being patient and not flare up on me.. cause im always blur.. haha thanks.. muacks.. i may not always voice out how much you guys meant to me but i hope you guys know how much you are to me..
haha.. today quite weird.. don't know if its a good thing or bad.. haha firstly, zhen said that i looked liked i applied foundation.. haha then miss tan mentioned if i had plucked my brows.. haha she said i looked quite different today.. haha.. dear friends, please let me know if im ever changing.. im don' t wanna changed to a different even myself i cant recogised.. i still wan to be the same old farzanah.. regardless of character or appearance.. thanks..
got to go.. take care..
Monday, July 31, 2006
hopefuly everything goes smoothly..
THANKS YOU, minminfor the cute chip.. haha loving it.. muaCks..
haha.. i hope i can get through this.. i really hope later i can successfully persuade him.. haha.. i not sure if im really scare cause of not having the confidence to have it changed or cause of XXX XXX.. anyways, talking to him real soon..
thanks william for accompanying me to go through this.. haha thanks for the advices listening ear you and lan mei gave.. haha
in times of trouble, you can really see someone's character.. therefore, once bitten, twice shy.. i hope that it really not your fault.. but i will find out real soon..
FARZANAH RAZACK!!! stand for what you believe and preserve till the end!!! jIAy0
haha.. i hope i can get through this.. i really hope later i can successfully persuade him.. haha.. i not sure if im really scare cause of not having the confidence to have it changed or cause of XXX XXX.. anyways, talking to him real soon..
thanks william for accompanying me to go through this.. haha thanks for the advices listening ear you and lan mei gave.. haha
in times of trouble, you can really see someone's character.. therefore, once bitten, twice shy.. i hope that it really not your fault.. but i will find out real soon..
FARZANAH RAZACK!!! stand for what you believe and preserve till the end!!! jIAy0
s0mething t0 shaRe..
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if,
we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim"
"Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner! yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir" "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love or like someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it
is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly,
stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you
the person that you are today.
No man is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge,
I wouldn't jump with them,
I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
"Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!""
If you judge people, you have no time to love them"
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."
"Enthusiasm is contagious. You could start an epidemic!"
Some say love,
it is a river That drowns the tender reed
Some say love,
it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love,
it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love,
it is a flower And you its only seed
It's the soul afraid of dreaming,
That never learns to dance And the soul afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love In the spring becomes the rose..
Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine if,
we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim"
"Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner! yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir" "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love or like someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it
is the right time it might be too late.
Seize the day.
Never have regrets.
And most importantly,
stay close to your friends and family,
for they have helped make you
the person that you are today.
No man is worth your tears and the only one who is, will never make you cry. If you love someone, put their name in a circle, instead of a heart, because hearts can break, but circles go on forever.
Everyone hears what you say.
Friends listen to what you say.
Best friends listen to what you don't say.
If all my friends were to jump off a bridge,
I wouldn't jump with them,
I'd be at the bottom to catch them.
"Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile!""
If you judge people, you have no time to love them"
"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle."
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."
"Enthusiasm is contagious. You could start an epidemic!"
Some say love,
it is a river That drowns the tender reed
Some say love,
it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love,
it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love,
it is a flower And you its only seed
It's the soul afraid of dreaming,
That never learns to dance And the soul afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love In the spring becomes the rose..
Sunday, July 30, 2006
lots to mention..
haha.. hi folks.. its me again.. firstly, thanks to kit for introducting this song and helping me add this wonderful song, 'My Valentine' by Martina McBride.. haha.. perhaps is the lyics that made me fall in love with this song as soon as i had heard it..
haha.. i will try my best to speak lesser.. cause its quite immpossible for me not to talk.. haha.. cause im farzanah razack.. haha down with BAD FLU.. making me felt as if my nose is falling off.. haha.. don't know when will recover.. hopefully as soon as possible..
haha.. friday (28 July 06), went to macpherson ITE for selection.. felt quite useless.. cant even codinate a team properly.. hope to be able to persuade people to join.. went to home to change before heading off to work.. enjoyed my job as a food runner.. haha simply loving it that day was a SUPER busy day.. kana slam aka busy.. haha but i love it.. haha had my dinner at 10pm.. haha after work 3.30am, went to watch Dragon Tiger Gate at 3.50 at Cinileisure with lan mei and kit.. initally wanted to watch at THE CATHAY cause heard that its 24 hours but sad to say its closed by the time we reach there.. then we walked to cinileisure to try our luck.. and we were lucky enough to get seats.. haha.. the show was qutie funny and nice.. haha thanks, derrick for sending me to the cathay.. if not i have to pay for cab fare.. haha watched till 5plus then accompany kit go eat mac breakfast..
haha then lan mei and kit accompany me go home to bath before lan mei and i head off to republic poly for briefing for the BEST competition.. haha i thought i wont fall asleep during the talk but after a while i actually dozed off for a while.. haha had a hand-on session.. it was great and fun.. after dismissal went to compass point with lan mei, shimin, baoyan for lunch.. haha went to arcade for a while.. first time go in.. haha then went home for a short nag before working at 9.30pm.. haha feeling restless but when got chance to grab a short nag, cant sleep.. haiz.. that's the reason why i becoming more and more like a panda.. haha
This few day, he got ask me out but rejected him cause of meeting someone le or working.. haha is it that im already letting go or i just letting him have a taste of his own medicine??? or letting him know that not 100% he ask me out, i sure free??? haha feeling quite sian about relationships.. haha all i ask for is just a simple happiness and not a happening relationship.. haha enough of relationship for the time being.. haha
tuesday, going to renew my PR.. haha 1 aug 06 have a few events.. haha got accounting CA.. don't even know how to do.. this time sure die.. haiz.. anyways, struggling not to let go and continue to preserve to the end.. haha..
haha.. i will try my best to speak lesser.. cause its quite immpossible for me not to talk.. haha.. cause im farzanah razack.. haha down with BAD FLU.. making me felt as if my nose is falling off.. haha.. don't know when will recover.. hopefully as soon as possible..
haha.. friday (28 July 06), went to macpherson ITE for selection.. felt quite useless.. cant even codinate a team properly.. hope to be able to persuade people to join.. went to home to change before heading off to work.. enjoyed my job as a food runner.. haha simply loving it that day was a SUPER busy day.. kana slam aka busy.. haha but i love it.. haha had my dinner at 10pm.. haha after work 3.30am, went to watch Dragon Tiger Gate at 3.50 at Cinileisure with lan mei and kit.. initally wanted to watch at THE CATHAY cause heard that its 24 hours but sad to say its closed by the time we reach there.. then we walked to cinileisure to try our luck.. and we were lucky enough to get seats.. haha.. the show was qutie funny and nice.. haha thanks, derrick for sending me to the cathay.. if not i have to pay for cab fare.. haha watched till 5plus then accompany kit go eat mac breakfast..
haha then lan mei and kit accompany me go home to bath before lan mei and i head off to republic poly for briefing for the BEST competition.. haha i thought i wont fall asleep during the talk but after a while i actually dozed off for a while.. haha had a hand-on session.. it was great and fun.. after dismissal went to compass point with lan mei, shimin, baoyan for lunch.. haha went to arcade for a while.. first time go in.. haha then went home for a short nag before working at 9.30pm.. haha feeling restless but when got chance to grab a short nag, cant sleep.. haiz.. that's the reason why i becoming more and more like a panda.. haha
This few day, he got ask me out but rejected him cause of meeting someone le or working.. haha is it that im already letting go or i just letting him have a taste of his own medicine??? or letting him know that not 100% he ask me out, i sure free??? haha feeling quite sian about relationships.. haha all i ask for is just a simple happiness and not a happening relationship.. haha enough of relationship for the time being.. haha
tuesday, going to renew my PR.. haha 1 aug 06 have a few events.. haha got accounting CA.. don't even know how to do.. this time sure die.. haiz.. anyways, struggling not to let go and continue to preserve to the end.. haha..
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
life is contridicing...
sorry folks.. i know its kinda boring about my blog cause i have been taking ages to update my life... haha.. actually afew days ago, finished typing my blog.. also upload a picture... but when i wanted to log out, i forgot to published the created post therefore everything gone.. well, its ok.. i will try my best to remember what i wanted to write that day.. was sick for the past two days.. made me look like a monkey cause VERY ITCHY!!! plus bad flu and cough.. haha luckily never lost my voice if not, i have to hire my three nice and sweet receptionist.. haha but now already feeling better... THANKS ALOT for all who have smsed me wishing me well.. love you guys..
well.. the past few days was good and not brooding.. still thinking if he is really "my special someone"??? the thought of his hand on her waist was just too hard to erase.. although when i was looking and feeling alright because i had to feign ignorance about the whole thing for the many reasons running in my head when im out with you but deep down in my heart after meeting you, the feeling still wasn't that good cause im constantly thinking what you might be doing when the images kept flashing in my brain.. i know i am nobody to you neither i have the right to demand a explanation cause i might not even have a small portion of your heart.. although you said that you are sure that you have feelings for me but that doesn't seemed so.. but let me voice out, there is nothing called RESERVED in love.. you might think that i will faithfully and patiently wait for you to ask for my hand for as far as im concerned that i loved you, but you are wrong cause im on the verge of letting go.. cause the sense of uncertaintity is getting stronger.. i know and i have agreed with the phrase of not neccessary that "action speaks louder than words" but because we doesn't have any diffculties, i don't understand why it seemed that i cant feel any actions from you although sometimes there might be words.. i dont know if i really wanted revenge or it just another excuse for me to wait for you to change from your 'age-flirt' or 'natural flirt'..
haha.. its been a long time since i ate my favourite MOS BURGER and i ate it on sunday.. haha.. serve me right for havong a cough now.. because i cant resist any food temptations.. haha life is contrdicting.. when i got the chance to use the computer the words to pen down my thought simply just vanished and when i cant use the computer, there's alot to of words flowing in my head.. that's all folks.. got to go le.. hope to update my blog as soon as possible..
well.. the past few days was good and not brooding.. still thinking if he is really "my special someone"??? the thought of his hand on her waist was just too hard to erase.. although when i was looking and feeling alright because i had to feign ignorance about the whole thing for the many reasons running in my head when im out with you but deep down in my heart after meeting you, the feeling still wasn't that good cause im constantly thinking what you might be doing when the images kept flashing in my brain.. i know i am nobody to you neither i have the right to demand a explanation cause i might not even have a small portion of your heart.. although you said that you are sure that you have feelings for me but that doesn't seemed so.. but let me voice out, there is nothing called RESERVED in love.. you might think that i will faithfully and patiently wait for you to ask for my hand for as far as im concerned that i loved you, but you are wrong cause im on the verge of letting go.. cause the sense of uncertaintity is getting stronger.. i know and i have agreed with the phrase of not neccessary that "action speaks louder than words" but because we doesn't have any diffculties, i don't understand why it seemed that i cant feel any actions from you although sometimes there might be words.. i dont know if i really wanted revenge or it just another excuse for me to wait for you to change from your 'age-flirt' or 'natural flirt'..
haha.. its been a long time since i ate my favourite MOS BURGER and i ate it on sunday.. haha.. serve me right for havong a cough now.. because i cant resist any food temptations.. haha life is contrdicting.. when i got the chance to use the computer the words to pen down my thought simply just vanished and when i cant use the computer, there's alot to of words flowing in my head.. that's all folks.. got to go le.. hope to update my blog as soon as possible..
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
hahaahahahahahaha
only afew days have passed but it seems that qutie a number of things happend... im thankful for 13 July 2006... it was a pleasant evening... first time to a wedding dinner.. worn a white top matched with a jean and plus a temporary perm... wanted to share my pic, although not nice but i quite like it.. so sad, that i cant upload my pic if not can share with you guys... haha lol
my badminton skills DROPPED!!! haiz.. must better improve asap.. kinda sian for 2day's training... feeling very slack and restless.. CANNOT DO THAT, FARZANAH RAZACK!!!! next training better put your socks up... jiayo
my badminton skills DROPPED!!! haiz.. must better improve asap.. kinda sian for 2day's training... feeling very slack and restless.. CANNOT DO THAT, FARZANAH RAZACK!!!! next training better put your socks up... jiayo
Friday, July 14, 2006
haha.. f|nally updat|ng my b|0g aga|n..
haha.. finally.. its been some days again before i pen down my thoughts... DAMN ME!!! stil haven reformat my computer... once again alot to write.. but already forget some le.. coz nv pen down after the thought den now like so many days le... but there are some things will be as vivd as if it happen yesterday...
let me start with the first topic...
SMS me if only you want to be my friends.. cause i sincerely do wanna still be friends with you... izi only foes or lovers??? PLEASE don't sms me those unpleasant things.. i don't wanna quarrel
with you and please don't make me HATE you..
Followed by..
maybe i just too naive to believe you.. believe in true love.. perhaps you are just not my destiny.. not the one im supposed to spend my life with.. izi because you are still at a flirting age or you are just like that.. Intially i hope to spend the rest of my life with you cause i strongly believe in my instints.. BUT so many times it proved to be wrong and it had to be you of all people.. cracking my "heart of steel" BIT BY BIT.. i may seem to be the perfect independent girl who has a mind of her own but sad to say im not when it comes to friendships and relationships.. now i understand why we are still not an item.. but in relationships, there is nothing called best of both worlds.. it should only be one and only.. but i do understand that due to temptations humans are greedy... haha.. im still waiting to meet the special someone who enter my life who is willing to only give he, himself and his heart to me.. cause i don't wish to have the person but not his heart.. it hurts alot to realised that there is no YOU in the heart of the person who is always by your side, although he consistantly showering you with love and concern.. anyways, there are more than one tree in the forest.. whats the point of giving up the whole forest for the sake of one damn tree!!! be strong and move on... come on!!! you can do it!!! but deep in my heart now im asking myself these questions, can i move on??? can i still go out with you without feeling the butterflies in my stomach... well, thats for me to try and figure it out.. or should i just do the 60 days he-tox activity??? i think its better for me not to hope for anything.. just continue be normal friends and heal on my own... look out for someone better.. im still a girl afterall and i won't lose out to anything..
finally..
im PROUD to say that im have a bunch of good besties who are always there for me no matter what.. always held out their ears and helping hands to me whenever i needed them.. THANKS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love you guys deep deep long long... but im sorry to say if i have not been there for you when you need me PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!! i promised to try my very best to be there for you...
let me start with the first topic...
SMS me if only you want to be my friends.. cause i sincerely do wanna still be friends with you... izi only foes or lovers??? PLEASE don't sms me those unpleasant things.. i don't wanna quarrel
with you and please don't make me HATE you..
Followed by..
maybe i just too naive to believe you.. believe in true love.. perhaps you are just not my destiny.. not the one im supposed to spend my life with.. izi because you are still at a flirting age or you are just like that.. Intially i hope to spend the rest of my life with you cause i strongly believe in my instints.. BUT so many times it proved to be wrong and it had to be you of all people.. cracking my "heart of steel" BIT BY BIT.. i may seem to be the perfect independent girl who has a mind of her own but sad to say im not when it comes to friendships and relationships.. now i understand why we are still not an item.. but in relationships, there is nothing called best of both worlds.. it should only be one and only.. but i do understand that due to temptations humans are greedy... haha.. im still waiting to meet the special someone who enter my life who is willing to only give he, himself and his heart to me.. cause i don't wish to have the person but not his heart.. it hurts alot to realised that there is no YOU in the heart of the person who is always by your side, although he consistantly showering you with love and concern.. anyways, there are more than one tree in the forest.. whats the point of giving up the whole forest for the sake of one damn tree!!! be strong and move on... come on!!! you can do it!!! but deep in my heart now im asking myself these questions, can i move on??? can i still go out with you without feeling the butterflies in my stomach... well, thats for me to try and figure it out.. or should i just do the 60 days he-tox activity??? i think its better for me not to hope for anything.. just continue be normal friends and heal on my own... look out for someone better.. im still a girl afterall and i won't lose out to anything..
finally..
im PROUD to say that im have a bunch of good besties who are always there for me no matter what.. always held out their ears and helping hands to me whenever i needed them.. THANKS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love you guys deep deep long long... but im sorry to say if i have not been there for you when you need me PLEASE LET ME KNOW!!! i promised to try my very best to be there for you...
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
haha.. us|ng e c0m |n my frenz p|ace
ermm... its been some days since i blog le.. coz entRepReuR lesson not in the computer lab.. erm.. think miss tan kinda know all of us using computer when she teachiing... haha lol
there's alot which i want to type but due to e restricted time left, i can only type alittle only... my life is still in a mess.. juz that im happy that my besties are there for me.. help to brighten my life.. and help me to go thru the rough patches of my life.. and of course the movitvations and countless of advice.. there are alot of thing i want to do but i dont know how to start.. there are alot of words i help been meanting to say but i dont know how to phrase... caLL me heartless call me thoughtful.. i just hope that everyone willl recover from their heartaches.. but i just wanna make known that expressions on the surface are not neccessary feelings from the heart...
there's alot which i want to type but due to e restricted time left, i can only type alittle only... my life is still in a mess.. juz that im happy that my besties are there for me.. help to brighten my life.. and help me to go thru the rough patches of my life.. and of course the movitvations and countless of advice.. there are alot of thing i want to do but i dont know how to start.. there are alot of words i help been meanting to say but i dont know how to phrase... caLL me heartless call me thoughtful.. i just hope that everyone willl recover from their heartaches.. but i just wanna make known that expressions on the surface are not neccessary feelings from the heart...
Monday, June 26, 2006
D0 y0u kn0w tat simple things can bRighten s0me0ne's life??? A simple smile can bRighten s0me0ne's day...
-=fRiday=- 23 june 06
it freak me 0ut!!! but it was a g00d exp0suRe. erm.. the c0nfident level did went up slightly. haha keep it up. erm.. thanks to trisha and lulu if n0t i will have al0t 0f pR0blems. thanks al0t!
-=satuRday=- 24 june 06
erm.. satuRday was quite a sucky day because 0f *******.idiot!!! because of it, didnt g0 w0Rk. waste my day 0f eaRning. NVM!!! haha.. its been a l0ng time since i last went j0gging, and i did it on satuRday @ ab0ut 10plus because i went t0 my daddy sh0p bef0Re that. it was a quick 0ne, didn't know is because of the pain in my st0mach 0R 0uR stamina impR0ve??? haha.. l0l And we went f0R desseRt bef0Re we went h0me. Reach h0me @ exactly 12 midnight..
-=sunday=- 25 june 06
the weekend wasn't that gReat till i g0t t0 spent the day with wayne and michelle... haha went t0 faR east t0 get my neckeman slippeR BUT eveRything was SOOOOO wR0ng!!! the seRvice SUCKS!!! I SWEAR IM NEVER GOING GET ANYMORE SHOES FROM THAT SHOP!!! ended up buying a heels instead. waste my m0ney! b0ught a shiRt. and a beautiful handmade pink butteRfly eaRRing fR0m heeRen. t00 bad i d0nt have the pictuRe with me if n0t i can sh0w y0u guys.. haha erm.. st0mach d0n't Really feel that well.. so reach h0me @ 10pm fR0m daddy sh0p.
s0meth|ng t0 shaRe..
L0ve is n0t t0 f0Rget but t0 f0Rgive, n0t t0 see but t0 undeRstand, n0t t0 heaR but t0 listen, n0t t0 let g0 but t0 H0LD 0N !!!! D0n't EVER LEAVE the 0ne y0u L0VE f0R the 0ne y0u LIKE, because the 0ne y0u like will leave y0u f0r the 0ne they l0ve.
Find a guy, wh0 calls y0u beautiful instead of h0t. wh0 l0ves y0u f0R wh0 y0u aRe. Y0u w0uld want t0 be beautiful because y0u l0ve him and n0t because y0u want t0 be..
Wh0 calls y0u back when y0u hang up 0n him. Y0u need s0me0ne t0 be theRe even th0ugh y0u aRe the 0ne who err.
Wh0 will stay awake just t0 watch you sleep. S0 as t0 pR0tect y0u.. when y0u aRe 0utside..
Wait f0r the guy wh0 kisses y0uR f0Rehead. T0 let y0u kn0w h0w much he cheRish and l0ve y0u..
Wh0 wants t0 sh0w y0u 0ff t0 the w0Rld when y0u aRe in y0uR sweats. Wh0 h0lds y0uR hand in fR0nt 0f his friends. He sh0ws y0u 0ff because y0u aRe his giRl and n0t because y0u aRe beautiful..
Wait f0R the 0ne wh0 is reminding y0u 0f h0w much he caRes ab0ut you and h0w lucky he is t0 have y0u. Wait for the 0ne wh0 tuRns t0 his fRiends and says, "..that's heR." even th0ugh y0u aRe n0t in y0uR finest...
Find a guy, wh0 calls y0u beautiful instead of h0t. wh0 l0ves y0u f0R wh0 y0u aRe. Y0u w0uld want t0 be beautiful because y0u l0ve him and n0t because y0u want t0 be..
Wh0 calls y0u back when y0u hang up 0n him. Y0u need s0me0ne t0 be theRe even th0ugh y0u aRe the 0ne who err.
Wh0 will stay awake just t0 watch you sleep. S0 as t0 pR0tect y0u.. when y0u aRe 0utside..
Wait f0r the guy wh0 kisses y0uR f0Rehead. T0 let y0u kn0w h0w much he cheRish and l0ve y0u..
Wh0 wants t0 sh0w y0u 0ff t0 the w0Rld when y0u aRe in y0uR sweats. Wh0 h0lds y0uR hand in fR0nt 0f his friends. He sh0ws y0u 0ff because y0u aRe his giRl and n0t because y0u aRe beautiful..
Wait f0R the 0ne wh0 is reminding y0u 0f h0w much he caRes ab0ut you and h0w lucky he is t0 have y0u. Wait for the 0ne wh0 tuRns t0 his fRiends and says, "..that's heR." even th0ugh y0u aRe n0t in y0uR finest...
Friday, June 23, 2006
f|rst th0ughts...
haha.. first of all.. i would like to thank minmin for making my blog such a wonderful one... heheh lol.. i love it and i really do.. haha muacks!!! ermm... creating a blog can really be a tough one.. juz by seein so many alphabets which i dont understand gives mi a terrible headache... haha anyways, today so far nothing much happen... only in the morning SUPER heavy rain.. luckily, qi, zhen and i wear flip flops... haha if not the shoe.... haiz... haha went to eat MOS BURGAR coz S&W cancelled.. den suddenly rush back to school like mad coz accounting lesson push forward... thats all now... better get prepared to go to work... ermmm... u are on my mind more often den u tink tat u R not..
Monday, June 19, 2006
because 0f y0u..
i will n0t make the same mistakes that y0u did
i wll n0t let myself
cause my heaRt s0 much misery
i wll n0t bReak the way y0u did,
y0u felt s0 hard
i've earned the way
t0 never let it get that far
Because 0f y0u
i neveR stRay t00 faR fr0m the sidewak
Because 0f y0u
leaRned t0 play 0n the safe side s0
i d0n't get huRt
Because 0f y0u
i find t haRd t0 tRust n0t 0ny me, but
eveRy0ne aR0und me
Because 0f y0u
i am afRaid
i l0se my way
And it's n0t t00 l0ng bef0Re y0u p0int
it 0ut
i cann0t cRy
Because i kn0w that's weakness in
y0uR eyes
i'm f0rced t0 fake
A smile, a laugh eveRyday 0f my llfe
My heaRt can't p0ssbly bReak
When it wasn't even wh0le t0 staRt wth
Because 0f y0u
i neveR stRay t00 faR fR0m the sidewak
Because 0f y0u
i leaRned t0 play 0n the safe side s0
i d0n't get huRt
Because 0f y0u
i find t haRd t0 tRust n0t 0ny me, but
eveRy0ne aR0und me
Because 0f y0u
i am afRaid
i watched y0u die
i heaRd y0u cRy eveRy night in y0ur sleep
i was s0 y0ung
Y0u sh0uld have kn0wn betteR than t0
lean 0n me
Y0u neveR th0ught 0f any0ne else
y0u just saw y0ur pain
And n0w i cRy in the middle 0f the night
For the same damn things!
Because 0f y0u
i neveR stRay t00 faR fR0m the sidewak
Because 0f y0u
i learned t0 play 0n the safe side s0
i d0n't get huRt
Because 0f y0u
i tRied my haRdest just t0 f0rget
eveRything
Because 0f y0u
i d0n't kn0w h0w t0 let any0ne else in
Because 0f y0u
i'm ashamed 0f my lfe
because it's empty
Because 0f y0u
i am afRad
Because 0f y0u
Because 0f y0u
i wll n0t let myself
cause my heaRt s0 much misery
i wll n0t bReak the way y0u did,
y0u felt s0 hard
i've earned the way
t0 never let it get that far
Because 0f y0u
i neveR stRay t00 faR fr0m the sidewak
Because 0f y0u
leaRned t0 play 0n the safe side s0
i d0n't get huRt
Because 0f y0u
i find t haRd t0 tRust n0t 0ny me, but
eveRy0ne aR0und me
Because 0f y0u
i am afRaid
i l0se my way
And it's n0t t00 l0ng bef0Re y0u p0int
it 0ut
i cann0t cRy
Because i kn0w that's weakness in
y0uR eyes
i'm f0rced t0 fake
A smile, a laugh eveRyday 0f my llfe
My heaRt can't p0ssbly bReak
When it wasn't even wh0le t0 staRt wth
Because 0f y0u
i neveR stRay t00 faR fR0m the sidewak
Because 0f y0u
i leaRned t0 play 0n the safe side s0
i d0n't get huRt
Because 0f y0u
i find t haRd t0 tRust n0t 0ny me, but
eveRy0ne aR0und me
Because 0f y0u
i am afRaid
i watched y0u die
i heaRd y0u cRy eveRy night in y0ur sleep
i was s0 y0ung
Y0u sh0uld have kn0wn betteR than t0
lean 0n me
Y0u neveR th0ught 0f any0ne else
y0u just saw y0ur pain
And n0w i cRy in the middle 0f the night
For the same damn things!
Because 0f y0u
i neveR stRay t00 faR fR0m the sidewak
Because 0f y0u
i learned t0 play 0n the safe side s0
i d0n't get huRt
Because 0f y0u
i tRied my haRdest just t0 f0rget
eveRything
Because 0f y0u
i d0n't kn0w h0w t0 let any0ne else in
Because 0f y0u
i'm ashamed 0f my lfe
because it's empty
Because 0f y0u
i am afRad
Because 0f y0u
Because 0f y0u
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