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haha.. finally decided to start my lazy fingers to once update my blog again.. haha.. sometimes updating blogs can be so fun and also so tiring.. haha ops.. i don't mean anything..

erm.. i have stopped working at loof, a rooftop bar which i will always be reminded of where working can be alot of fun even though sometimes it could be busy like mad.. haha.. i have thought for a long time before i finally decided to quit.. i have decided to give up this job because of the late dismissal hours.. im so afraid that i will doze off in class which i really don't wish to.. haha anyways 27 october 2006 will my last day there.. haha luck for weiling and me, that most people didn't knew that ot was our last day.. therefore, we are saved from the sabotage.. haha i will definately miss you guys and those joy and stress that we once shared.. haha haha i would like to thanks steven here although, he will never be able to read this, for the treat he give on our last day at work..

Before my last day at loof, i have already embarked on a new journey of my part time working life.. the pay was the same just that the travelling distances had to be at DOVER!!! omg.. but luckily, the working hours are flexible and so far, the new colleagues have been of a great fun and help too..

haha.. saturday, went clubbing with shuping and wayne to celebrate da jie birthday cum halloween.. haha had fun but felt abit tired.. haha well, its already since its a once in a blue moon basis.. haha

another thing is that i have been trying to convince myself not only to be successful in pretending not to care about someone but also trying to not think and get abit sad when i realised how the person actually feel and said about me now.. well, i have to learnt to be realistic, how that particular person feels and said about you is no longer the same after you guys cant even be friends.. haha its alright that we are no longer what we used to be cause i have tried slightly (in order not to force the person into it) to savage the friendship.. it takes two hands to clap after all.. friendships are all destinated.. if the person is meant to be your friend, it will be after all.. just like what i always believe in, Certain things are just not meant to be... therefore, leave everything to fate and destiny.. haha

so far in my life, everything have been alright, thanks to all my besties and the special him.. haha
just that i have to SUPER buck up for my last lap in ITE.. the thought of leaving IQR can be quite saddening.. soon, i am leave my dear classmates to continue my journey perhaps to the working life or studies without them.. i definately gonna miss the laughers and joys that we had.. haha i have tried telling myself to be cheered up cause this is another turning point in life again that i had to experience.. even the happiest times have to come to an end some day for a better endeavours..

haha.. still so slow in updating...

haha.. hello folks.. very very sorry.. i know my blog have been very BORING... spider web growing soon le... hehe the final lap of me attaining my cert has arrived and i really have doubts if i could really get that cert.. all i wish for is just a simple pass and move on.. haha

feeling boring without zhen going training with me.. since i got nothing to do at home and there are a couple of hours before training start, so i finally decided to update my blog.. haha wanted to update my blog last week when i was in a lan shop but too concentrate on MSN, therefore, didnt blog.. haha

the plan to job hop has already started.. finally after thinking for some time after recieving my previous term result.. haha the result was SUPER BAD... really ashamed to face mrs lee.. perhaps now is the time to forcus on my studies by hoping to another job with ... perhaps retail working hours... really cant afford to sleep in class already.. can anyone help me... OMG!!!

whats not supposed to be said will not be said.. im a person who cant control myself when i have the slightly feeling.. therefore, if you think im heartless or cold hearted, so be it.. think what you think of me.. there's nothing i can do about it.. i rather be silent then more things happen.. dear friends who are reading my blog please dont mistaken that im hinting something or telling anyone anything..

ever since i known you, im losing my confidence in myself.. you make me feel scare of you getting upset.. haha is this really because i loved you too much to let you get upset about me??? heaven knows.. although you made me feel that i already have a place in your heart but somehow or rather im still very afraid of your past.. anyways, im prepare to live day by day and not wanting to think about the future with you...

hope you will come to terms with it.. be STRONG and MOVE on.. i understand how it feels.. the feeling really SUCKS!!! and too sudden to accept but you must jiay0!!! cry it out loud and talk to someone if you really need to talk.. life is about being happy or sad.. since its using the same amount of energy, why not choose to be happy and feel light.. im sorry.. when it comes to relationships, im tongue tied with words.. not good with words.. but i still hope that my ears can be of your service if you need them.. hugges