haha.. don't know what im typing..

taxi taxi taxI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what's the point of taking a cab even when you know you are going to be late.. im sure most people takes a cab because they wouldn't want to be late.. haizzz... sad to say.. i took a cab this morning but i still ended up late for school.. thanks to the taxi driver.. luckily i think ms XXX wasn't aware of it.. haha hopefully she doesn't... if not, haiiiizzzz... haha lol anyways, this teaches me a lesson to be punctual... haha i have been telling myself this but yet each time i getting worse.. ops.. anyways, since im aware of it now, i BETTER try EXTREMLY hard to change this idiotic habit..

exam coming soon.. the days getting nearer, the tension gets tighter.. hope i don't snap during exams..

minds getting more and more blank as im typing this blog.. haha wondered if its due to lack of sleep.. haha ops.. im love to sleep.. that's me...

my love for stars seems just getting deeper and deeper as time passes.. don't know why im so obessed with it.. haha simply love it.. haha just now i wanted to change my blogskin when i happen to go into a website where i can get many beautiful pics of stars.. simply spoiled for choices.. haha i like something simple yet sweet.. but it has to be strong enough to capture my heart.. haha don't be greedy.. anyways, decided to stay with my forever friends blog skin.. hehe

haha.. to be honest with you guys.. im not sure of what i wanna typing.. cause didn't know why, just felt like typing and typing... haha

check this out..

Hey people!!! Check these out.. i find most of them quite true.. hope they are true for you as well.. haha enjoy..

People who are born in the month of:
January
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

Febuary Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

March
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

April
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

June
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

July
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

August
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

September
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

October
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

November
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

December
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

blog for sake of blogging???

Today is no special day and I have no particular reason for blogging.. I have no news to tell.. nor any problems to discuss.. or gossips to tell.. i only wanted to say...

MANY SMILES BEGIN BECAUSE OF ANOTHER SMILE.. All it takes is just someone to start the ball rolling..

haha.. its been twelve days since i last blogged.. am i losing my interest or mood to blog or i just simply blog for blogging??? haha perhaps only god or the inner me knows..

anyways, life has been fine.. just that alot pieces of work to pick up and master before my second year mid-year exam starts.. i don't pray for flying colours results but just a pass i would be overjoyed cause i don't wish to waste two year of my youth for nothing.. haha sounded serious??? perhaps.. haha lol..

haha.. u need not apologise... cause i understand that there are certain things that cant be shared to certain individual.. so, NO WORRIES, IM FINE!!! haha if im meant to know anything, i would be told.. haha thanks for all those pleasant surprises.. im sorry if im have not been a good companion to celebrate your big day..

sometimes i wondered if i should note down all my happiness and sadness so in time to come, i will be reminded of it??? haha no particular reasons for typing these.. just typing only.. haha perhaps if i don't be so detailed, i will not be reminded of the sadness or happiness that i once had.. haha.. so therefore i cherish and treasure all those happy memories in my heart.. haha and try to erase all those unhappiness.. haha humans are greedy.. aren't they??? maybe that's life.. people would only want to remember all the happiness and not sadness.. but to remember sadness isn't that daunting either.. sometimes it good to remember them so that you would know how to cherish the one when they have arrived.. BUT its still better to dump all those sadness into the trash bin FOREVER!!! haha

haha.. just finished the inter-college badminton tournament, CC team 1 won the championship and team 2 won the third placing.. haha its been a pleasure to work with all these girls who are jovial and fun-loving.. haha but i still miss the previous batch of them.. haha perhaps all these would be in my memories forever.. all the school life.. all those ever unimaginable memories lives in my mind throughout my living years..

i felt that my life is getting more and more complicated.. im not sure if this is what i ever wished for.. perhaps i should just say that unexpected things happens at the most unexpected times.. haha so, stop brooding and live life to the fullest cause life is short.. enjoy it.. love it..

sportmanship???

isn't sports supposed to be fair and square??? was it right was a coach to kinda ask me to give up the game because its better for one to die than both??? i know that im already losing it.. haha perhaps its because of all my stupid mistakes or im just not calm enough.. haha anyways, it alright.. what's done cannot be undone.. haha at least i tried my best.. hehe was i feeling sore for losing or just that im just quite unexpected that XXX would say something like that??? he even said that my friends came to celebrate with the loser.. he said it was a joke but i felt that he was being sarcastic about it.. well, its alrite since i lost the game..

Went to watch "Crazy Stone" at PS after the match.. haha its been a long time since i went movies with 7 other persons.. the show was quite funny..

Monday when i was playing, i couldn't believe that was me.. haha simply running the never-say-die spirit.. haha it was a game to remember.. haha

Friday's and Saturday's fireworks was BEAUTIFUL!!!! Fantastic!!! haha i was shooting the firework when i was almost knocked off the chair by a little boy because of his mother forced him so hard to share the chair with me.. actually it was qutie embarassing..

saturday went to zouk and O bar.. almost got cheated of our money at zouk.. luckily we saw the board that says $20 with 2 standard drink for ladies and $25 with 2 standard drinks for guys.. the guy looked quite decent.. Haiz.. it really proves right not to judge a book by its cover.. so next time beware of a guy that wears glasses, quite tan, and about 1.6m waiting for his preys near the entrance of zouk.. he said that he will be selling the tickets for half price is is supposed to be $10 plus but he will sell at $20 and say its at half price of $25.. he kinda stupid for being tied up by his own words.. he will be asking "excuse me, you have bought your tickets???"

he bought me a shirt and a short.. omg.. why is he suddenly do that??? he really bought it for me or he guilty about something??? figuring hard to find out if he really the one???

haha...

once again, now im going to update my blog again.. hehe the past few days was great everything was fine just that i was feeling very tired and restless.. not sure if it cause im already used to night life or simply just not enough sleep.. haha i love to sleep!!! haha

yesterday, participated in the track and field meets.. ran 800m.. lost terribly.. haha serve me right for not consistently train hard and keeping my stamina.. haha did i start to fast that led me to struggling at the finishing or just stamina dropped??? or did i not control my breathing right??? haha its alright.. everything is a lesson learnt.. anyways, that was my last run in ITE.. never gonna run for BISHAN again!!! kana cheated by that idiot XXX.. only know how to make sure of people only.. asshole he think i enjoy running for him ar.. the answer is NO!!!!! before i went to simei he said im going to run the relay 4 X 400m relay.. then when i went there he ask me to run 800m.. and i run because of hema.. than after i finish the race, he said, "farzanah, you stand by for 4 X 400m" can he make up his mind... he want me to run or dont... aiyo feeling like being make use of.. haiz.. stupid me...

Saw the fantstic fireworks at my work place.. it was VERY BEAUTIFUL!!! LOVE IT!!! but still cant be compared to my staRRY staRs.. haha looking forward to see a shooting star..

monday i going to play the individual for badminton at dover.. feeling kinda scare of who im gonna meet cause of the track and field meets.. haha will i meet very strong players??? hopefully not.. please pray for me and wish me all the best.. haha muacks..

haha.. between me and him, i don't know what's gonna happen.. i don't know if your choice is me or not.. cause im controlling myself from falling deeper.. cause im terrified that what i thought was of your action was simply 180 degrees oppsite of what you really meant.. so, if your choice is really me, then prove it to me to let me release my heart again.. you may talk about the future in front of me but you may not live the future with me.. although i feel that you are already not that playful but the feeling of you still wanna play is still there.. yes.. we kinda talk out but perhaps the timing is not right yet.. we are still expecting some changes.. so im not goin to be the one to ask cause im still have the mind of a typical traditional girl.. haha well let nature takes its course and leave my happiness to fate and destiny..

i may not be the one who is always there for you when you need me but rest assure that i will definately try my best to be when you let me know... haha i know i have not been a good friend.. haha although i might not have voiced out how important you guys are to me but you guys are definately cherished and treasured by me.. you guys have been great frinds to me.. thanks.. treasurin it!!! muack muacks..

kinda ....

wanted to update my blog afew days ago but didnt know why, felt kinda sian to do so.. haiz.. its qutie sad to felt that way.. its ok anyways cause im updating my blog again now..

bef0Re i knew y0u, i didnt knew that i c0uld l00k at s0meb0dy and smile f0R n0 reas0n..

once again as usual im have alot that i wanted to write cause im too lazy to update my blog plus i didnt have the access to the internet.. haha hope my saviour runs by real soon.. cause i haven been touch my computer for already don't know how many months.. haha..

quite afew things have happend.. perhaps you might felt that im being unresponsible or giving up but im too tired to carry on the load that is not supposely be mine.. haha call me stupid, call me selfish but i had washed my hands off the class t-shirt thing..

i will not say sorry again for i know that you wont like it please believe that i dont really mean it.. thanks for the breakfast..

i don't know if you are still the one cause i dont know if im willing to once again give you my heart.. i believe that im too weak to take that pain again.. please prove to me that you are serious and sincere about me.. cause i think im still waiting.. athough you said that if you are not serious about me, you wouldn't asked me to that dinner but is that really the truth??? sorry that i feeling and talking this way cause im real scare to be broken once again.. its been so hard for me to stop behaving like a walking zombie for some time since the day you left me.. so i had to fend for my heart and protect that for any unneccessary hurt.. im not the one to say that im behaving like a walking zombie but that was what my friend said.. haha if this was last few months, i would have like im on the ninth could but why am i feeling this way??? trying to control my heart or the heart is going dead??? will i say yes if you pop that question now???

qiqi.. thanks for still giving me the morning calls daily and not giving up on me.. didnt know what happend to me for the past two weeks.. im sorry!!! thanks.. muack muacks..

dear friends esepically ling.. haha im so glad that you all are always being patient and not flare up on me.. cause im always blur.. haha thanks.. muacks.. i may not always voice out how much you guys meant to me but i hope you guys know how much you are to me..

haha.. today quite weird.. don't know if its a good thing or bad.. haha firstly, zhen said that i looked liked i applied foundation.. haha then miss tan mentioned if i had plucked my brows.. haha she said i looked quite different today.. haha.. dear friends, please let me know if im ever changing.. im don' t wanna changed to a different even myself i cant recogised.. i still wan to be the same old farzanah.. regardless of character or appearance.. thanks..

got to go.. take care..